The title of this post is something I’ve been asking myself a lot.

I was deeply hurt. I am honestly not sure when that pain will go away or if it ever will, but as long as I still have it lingering inside me, what do I do with it?

Jesus knew pain better than anyone else, He beared all of our pain and suffering on the cross, so what did He do with the pain?

Jesus continued to do good by the Lord. Jesus persevered. Jesus did what was right in the Lord’s eyes, even if it seemed wrong to many of those in this world. Jesus was obedient to what the Lord called Him to do, even if it hurt.

“For the moment all discipline seems painful rather than pleasant, but later it yields the peaceful fruit of righteousness to those who have been trained by it.” Hebrews 12:11

Sometimes obedience to the Lord leaves you without what you originally wanted and a lot of times it leads to a lot of pain for a while. Jesus knew that, He even knew what was coming that day of His Crucifixion. Nonetheless, He continued to be obedient, because He knew the stone would be rolled away after just a few days and He would defeat death.

Jesus did know what was coming, but the rest of the world didn’t. This is where I think the world tends to lose their focus and trust in the Lord because they don’t know when it will get better. They see the immediate pain that will occur but don’t look to the peace and the goodness to follow, if we are just patient with His timing. I, myself, am guilty of doubting the Lord will ever make any good out of my pain.

But Hebrews 12:11 gave me a glimpse of hope today.

We may not know when things will get better, but if we are obedient to what God tells us to do and what He calls us to do, He will give us peace beyond understanding. He will make things right in His own timing, we can’t lose hope in what He has already promised. Yes, obedience hurts. Jesus is the prime example of how much obedience can hurt, but it can lead to so much more goodness, grace and hope.

To end this off, I’m going to say, I still don’t really know what to do with all the pain. I see it, I know it’s still there, and I can still feel it. I don’t know when things will begin to feel better, but I trust that my God will make good out of the obedience I have done my best to please Him with. While I am no where near the level of obedience Jesus is to the Lord, I will continue to do my best to be obedient to Him. There are many things in this life that I can say I wish could have gone differently, but I have done all I can do because I did all that God told me to do. Now He is telling me to give up the past to Him and look forward to the future He is preparing. Yes, the pain is still there, but I’m trusting my Father in Heaven with it and I am learning from it. Growing pains is what they truly are. the Lord will sprout something so incredibly beautiful from it. I just have to be patient enough to let Him tend the soil.